jewelangel
Apr 21, 2006, 12:17 AM
hi everbody
i have a primary lymphedema for since 13 year now at beginning i was only 20 year old i have many goals to complete but never able complete anything but i did graduted high school at 19 year old and i went to college for only one semester then all sudden everthing changed my life forever ....... it happen feb 1994 .... i went to camping with my ex friend which was really last min .... geez anyway we went there and i start to notice that i was soo colddd i was wearing short and tank that time and i ask him to stop so i could change to be warm up cloth so i did it and then continue and i keep getting worst cold as shake i thought it is so odd and i end up use blanket to cover up for awhile till finally we arrive there and set up fireplace to keep warm so i did closeeest to fireplace to keep myself warm up to control my cold ....... finallly it did ..... but then i developed get sick and i end up in camp tent and all sudden got pain on right leg i was screaming for awhile it hurt lillte bit but then finally beat the shake and fall alseep for awhile then i recvied the visison of dream iit was my olddd dog who used be crazy over me alot i meant adore me alot anyway that dog is telling me that as act like he look mean and bite my leg so hard i was screaming thought it was real dog when i woke up and turn out it was nothing i thought it is soo odddd... i found myself soo sweating alot and went back sleep for awhile till earllliest morning i had to wake up and go potty but when i get stand up i fall down my right leg was numb i had no clue why but i go ahead crawl and do potty thing then came back wake up that guy to set up fire to keep me warm again and trying to figure out whati s matter with me till i decide to sleep in car and finally sleep really good till other woman who woke me up by shake the car and woke me up and i found myself gotten worse hard to get up and feel sooo sick and i meant worsttest i ever deal that i never been experience so i beg them to take me back home and i end up pay her gas becuase they upset that i made them take me back to phx town and finally when i got back home my mom was in shock to see how sick i was and she figure out that i had high fever which i didnt realized so i end up take a shower and clean myself up and found redish on my right leg i said to myselfl what heck is that ..... and told mom about it and she immidatly knew what is it i had no idea what she thinking and i i push it away for awhile cuase i demand to go sleep to get alot rest and get better but turn out it wasnt so i end up went see doctor to find out what s matter with me and he gave me antobotic and shot and etc even took sterioid not really as drug it is for kill painful cause i have hard time walk cuase it hurt my leg it get me screaming every time i walk ..... it is like equal as truck hit your leg that is how i feel ....... so doctor dont know what is it ..... till finally i got my head clear up after i feel much better due to antibotic and i anayaled my leg i thought it is soo strangest i ever saw ... i thought it is just temporany but i was sooo wrong and realized i end up alot sick due to this leg and i coudlnt figure out what happen that night ......... i end up drop college and everthing and i end up stay home for longggggg longggg time becuase nobody could figure out and i realized i live with it for rest of my life ......... i think it is suck to have this and it does hurt my life style and my feeling and i feel like im worthless to any man i have been lonely for longgg time now i have it for 13 year now i found what is it in several year ago even i did end up do threapy but i found it get me in biggger worst level as make it worst to make swollen three time bigger it got me scare and i woudlnt try it again till i able to trust person who able to get me over it i just want end it soo badlly and releive my pains ..... and also i happen to be deaf too .... and being overweight is worst i ever face to it make it harder for me to get through the day ............ it make me sad :( .....
i have a primary lymphedema for since 13 year now at beginning i was only 20 year old i have many goals to complete but never able complete anything but i did graduted high school at 19 year old and i went to college for only one semester then all sudden everthing changed my life forever ....... it happen feb 1994 .... i went to camping with my ex friend which was really last min .... geez anyway we went there and i start to notice that i was soo colddd i was wearing short and tank that time and i ask him to stop so i could change to be warm up cloth so i did it and then continue and i keep getting worst cold as shake i thought it is so odd and i end up use blanket to cover up for awhile till finally we arrive there and set up fireplace to keep warm so i did closeeest to fireplace to keep myself warm up to control my cold ....... finallly it did ..... but then i developed get sick and i end up in camp tent and all sudden got pain on right leg i was screaming for awhile it hurt lillte bit but then finally beat the shake and fall alseep for awhile then i recvied the visison of dream iit was my olddd dog who used be crazy over me alot i meant adore me alot anyway that dog is telling me that as act like he look mean and bite my leg so hard i was screaming thought it was real dog when i woke up and turn out it was nothing i thought it is soo odddd... i found myself soo sweating alot and went back sleep for awhile till earllliest morning i had to wake up and go potty but when i get stand up i fall down my right leg was numb i had no clue why but i go ahead crawl and do potty thing then came back wake up that guy to set up fire to keep me warm again and trying to figure out whati s matter with me till i decide to sleep in car and finally sleep really good till other woman who woke me up by shake the car and woke me up and i found myself gotten worse hard to get up and feel sooo sick and i meant worsttest i ever deal that i never been experience so i beg them to take me back home and i end up pay her gas becuase they upset that i made them take me back to phx town and finally when i got back home my mom was in shock to see how sick i was and she figure out that i had high fever which i didnt realized so i end up take a shower and clean myself up and found redish on my right leg i said to myselfl what heck is that ..... and told mom about it and she immidatly knew what is it i had no idea what she thinking and i i push it away for awhile cuase i demand to go sleep to get alot rest and get better but turn out it wasnt so i end up went see doctor to find out what s matter with me and he gave me antobotic and shot and etc even took sterioid not really as drug it is for kill painful cause i have hard time walk cuase it hurt my leg it get me screaming every time i walk ..... it is like equal as truck hit your leg that is how i feel ....... so doctor dont know what is it ..... till finally i got my head clear up after i feel much better due to antibotic and i anayaled my leg i thought it is soo strangest i ever saw ... i thought it is just temporany but i was sooo wrong and realized i end up alot sick due to this leg and i coudlnt figure out what happen that night ......... i end up drop college and everthing and i end up stay home for longggggg longggg time becuase nobody could figure out and i realized i live with it for rest of my life ......... i think it is suck to have this and it does hurt my life style and my feeling and i feel like im worthless to any man i have been lonely for longgg time now i have it for 13 year now i found what is it in several year ago even i did end up do threapy but i found it get me in biggger worst level as make it worst to make swollen three time bigger it got me scare and i woudlnt try it again till i able to trust person who able to get me over it i just want end it soo badlly and releive my pains ..... and also i happen to be deaf too .... and being overweight is worst i ever face to it make it harder for me to get through the day ............ it make me sad :( .....